Bye. Going to read now.
I literally watched 10 seconds, was disgusted and flipped the channel. Are those women beautiful? yes. Does it make majority of females hate their bodies? yes. No wonder so many females have eating disorders. It’s things like that, that make us believe that we have to look like that to be beautiful. They are wrong. You are beautiful, and those women are too. Fortunately not all women are a Barbie clone. We are all different shapes and sizes. Everyone has different curves. I’m not giving people an excuse to be unhealthy, I’m just saying that you DO NOT have to be a size 00 with huge lips and long curly hair to be beautiful. Work hard to stay healthy, but don’t do it because you want to look like the ideal woman. Do it because you care about your body and want to live a healthy and exciting life. Lord knows I will never look like those women, even if I lived at the gym. So I go in order to be the best that I can be. Don’t try to be someone that you are not. Embrace yourself and take care of it. You are beautiful, and if some people don’t see that than pity them. They won’t ever know true beauty.
Feels good. I literally sprinted for a little over 2 miles. I know I should have done a slower pace/longer distance like usual, preparing for the half marathon but I just had so much energy tonight. Plus I was listening to Skrillex and AWOLNATION. Killer pump up music. Then I did abs, chest press, legs, then arms. After weights I sprinted for about 5 more minutes because I had so much energy left. Feel great! Ready to do it again tomorrow. The running that is, not weights. I do weights every other day.
WOOHOO GET FIT.
Time to get down to business about my dream “job” and my extended stay in Austin. Time to pursue everything full force.
Sometimes a year sounds forever away. Sometimes it doesn’t seem like enough time. Mostly I just want to be in TX, in my apartment and spending lots of time with my twin. After a couple years hopefully being able to find a location/non-for-profit I can worth with full time either in the states or out. I haven’t felt like I’ve been stuck here in a very long time, but since I see so many of my friends getting engaged and progressing with their dreams and goals it is starting to feel more and more that way. I’m not letting myself wallow in self pity, but I do think seeing my friends progress is encouraging my drive to my move. At the same time the greater the desire to move out, the more stressful it gets. Mostly because I want everything to be prepared before hand, so I start thinking about everything way too early, and because I am afraid of failure. I want to do this and I need to do this, but occasionally I find myself wondering if I just stuck with my original plan (going to college right after school) how much different things would be. Not necessarily better, but the things I worry about now wouldn’t even have to be considered. Life is a challenge and it always will be. It’s strange how quickly things change. I mostly feel like I’m just fumbling through life, but In reality that’s all we really can do. Make decisions to the best of our knowledge and hope and pray that it’s the right one.
Where do I even start?!
I am going to be super prepared, and super organized. The more I prepare over the next yr, the smoother it will go. Today I got a yellow tea kettle and 2 super sweet coffee mugs along with killer picture frames. THIS IS REALLY HAPPENING!
I also need help. You guys should help me with my list.